Anna Clementine and Florence Willow
Hello lovely readers! My babes are 10.5 weeks and I am finally writing a post about their birth.
... On Thursday morning we found out the babes were coming
tomorrow, 26 July. They were ready to meet us and enter the world. Those
24 hours were an emotional journey and I see them as a labouring of
sorts. You see, my babes were born via C-section. It was difficult for
me to come to terms with the fact that I would not be able to deliver
them naturally as my heart was set on birthing naturally since I was
aware that I would one day have babies. To me, it was a fundamental part
of my being a woman.
During
my pregnancy I embarked on a journey (or mission?) of the possibility of birthing twins
naturally by speaking to many experts,
doctors, and mid wives. As it was both a first time pregnancy and twins the general consensus was
that it is not possible. I initially resisted, convinced that it was just the default response in South Africa, a nation with a high rate of elective Caesar
Sections. However through my journey I learned a lot and
came to accept that the safest way to bring my twins into the world
in this context, was by an elective Caesar. As it turns out, both babies
were breech which gave me added faith that this was exactly how they
were meant to be born.
Their birth experience was still pretty magical. Although there is a lot
of inspirational content out there on natural birthing, I could not not
find much on C sections. However, I read about the fulcrum on
The littlest blog and was inspired by the mindset which she had drawn from a book on hypnobirthing, that made her birth such a
wonderful experience (
read her full birth story here).
"soon
it will be time for the baby to become it's own separate person. one
cycle is ending and, immediately, another is beginning. what has been
called 'labor' is that in-between experience...the fulcrum...that small, short period of time and space between the baby's two worlds.
with
your mind's eye and your inner senses, mentally and emotionally feel
yourself joyfully, totally aware and participating. see it as already
accomplished. listen with your mind's ear to that first sound of new
life.
the life force of nature is working in harmony with
you. now more than at any moment in your life, it is within you and
with you. you are a part of the greatest celebration of life."
With these thoughts in mind I was ready and full of excitement as the sun rose on their birth day. I
think of that day and fill with emotion and wonder. My husband and mom were right by side supporting me. Meeting my babies,
and finding out we had two little girls, was the most incredible moment
of my life. We were so blessed that the babes were a good weight so they
came straight to me and never left my side. The three days in hospital
were a blur of new mama love and getting to know our two new family
members.
And now I can't believe they are 10 weeks already. I am looking forward to sharing tales of mamahood and twins with you.
xoxo
